A reflection of 2015

Its been quite a while since I’ve posted here.  I do miss my more frequent writings as they were a great way to self-reflect on things.

However, my life has been go…go…go for months now. Work has gotten busier with wonderful projects, school has been a challenge and amazing, my love life has been full with my wonderful daddy and with my delightful boyfriend. My kids are growing up so fast and creating lives of their own, its been so wonderful to watch and bittersweet too.

Last weekend I was away with some classmates and chatting about my work and kids and the two amazing men in my life and suddenly I sat back and realized just how interesting my life is. How I’ve had such wonderful experiences that have helped me grow as a person.

This past week, I’ve had various holiday parties and was chatting about my graduate work and program with some colleagues and I realized how much I’ve grown in confidence through this experience. I’ve had the skills, this just gave me the confidence and some new tools to do what I’ve always done even better.

Daddy and I are talking about moving in together and making plans for our future. Its such an exciting time.  We still have a few bumps in the road to get through but we are doing them together. That is a great feeling.

M and I are facing some bumps together too.  Isn’t that always the case in poly relationships, but he and I are solid and we are enjoying each other and where our relationship has grown.  We always talk about things we would like to do together. Who knows if they will happen, but it is fantastic that we can share ideas and see that connection being there.

Some friendships have changed over the year, some grown stronger, some moving away, others have faded, but all those around me care for me and are cared for in return.

As for me, I don’t know what will happen when…. that is a challenge for this little planner. However, my life is so rich and full that I know I am on the right path with the right people.

2015 has been a very good year to me. 2016 is looking to be even better.

Cheers

 

 

 

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Wonderful vacation

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Vacation with daddy was incredibly relaxing and fun at the same time.  A whole week of being together and while my kids were with us, lots of time for just us.

We spent a lot of time in the car together and the wonderful lighthearted, playful banter we shared set the tone for the trip. It helped us relax and just be us, together.  (little things)  We did have some serious discussions mid week but even those didn’t weigh us down for long.

Most mornings spent on the beach, he tanning and me under an umbrella. He got me to be adventurous and go out into the ocean and jumping waves.  2015-07-20 19.35.52 Afternoons spent playing mini-golf.  I beat him once, he beat me three times, but our scores were so close to each other’s – never more than 3 points between us.  Loved being able to keep up with him.  2015-07-19 13.22.46 Then we would spend time in our great vacation house, enjoying the air conditioning. Typically him napping and me reading, yet I would eventually nap myself.  Evenings were always a mix.  Going out to enjoy what the town had to offer or just sitting on the beach and taking pictures.  One night we sat on the beach until it was really dark out.  Enjoyed good food, fireworks and lots of fun times. 2015-07-20 19.34.20

One of my favorite experiences was our helicopter ride.  We took a brief helicopter tour over Myrtle Beach and I loved the pictures I got from it.  Had so much fun.    2015-07-24 12.38.41

Now daddy and I are back to routines and everyday life. We miss each other a lot and working on how to spend more time together. Work keeps us both busy and school will start soon for me.  We’ve enjoyed this summer and of course vacation was what we both needed to reconnect.

Here are a few pics that sum it all up.

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Hope you all have or will have your own great moments.

A view to wake up to…

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Sometimes it is the simplest things in life that are truly so beautiful.  I had the wonderful opportunity to be in NY with M (one of my partners) and while relaxing and enjoying the view, he snapped this lovely picture.

I normally do not like photos of myself, (D has been breaking me of that for the past year) and yet I really like this one.  More for the view outside the window.  However, he captured me so relaxed and quiet.  That alone is quite beautiful and rare.

Happy Monday everyone!  Back to the hectic, crazy schedule.

The official collaring

My collar

My collar

Without fanfare and without any formal ceremony, D collared me.  I know he wanted my friends around and make it more of a celebration, but sometimes the most important moments, need to be simple and private.

My collar is a simple antique style key with some modern elements (the flames). Hanging on a simple silver chain.  And I love it.

Far nicer than the bling he originally wanted that was backordered then cancelled.  He still wants to get a nicer chain and a lock so others see the symbolism.

I knew it was coming since it was my birthday gift (over a month ago) and so the words were spoken when he put a little band around my wrist.  This collaring was while out at the PA Renaissance Faire and we’d been shopping, enjoying mulled wine, crisp autumn day and being together.  We stumbled on the key and we knew it was perfect.   We went over to a picnic table and he placed it around my neck.  Its amazing how something so simple can have such deep meaning and love.

Happy collared little sub.

Encouragement

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Stress and changes happening at rapid speeds really wear one down.  Its been this way for me for the past month and its hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  But there is that light and many little things pointing me towards it.

For one having this blog has helped me to think things out, even when I ramble.  It has helped to get others perspectives. It has helped to share.  So thank you to all who follow and to all of those that I follow.

My friends and D have been supportive and encouraging as well.  Its wonderful to surround yourself with positive influences and those of similar minds.

“Encourage, lift and strengthen one another. For the positive energy spread to one will be felt by us all. For we are connected, one and all.”
Deborah Day

Encouragement

encouragement

Stress and changes happening at rapid speeds really wear one down.  Its been this way for me for the past month and its hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.  But there is that light and many little things pointing me towards it.

For one having this blog has helped me to think things out, even when I ramble.  It has helped to get others perspectives. It has helped to share.  So thank you to all who follow and to all of those that I follow.

My friends and D have been supportive and encouraging as well.  Its wonderful to surround yourself with positive influences and those of similar minds. 

“Encourage, lift and strengthen one another. For the positive energy spread to one will be felt by us all. For we are connected, one and all.”
Deborah Day

Little Things

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Its always the little things that we tend to enjoy the most yet forget about in the long run.   I know I’m guilty of that in past relationships.  While grateful at the time, it gets lost in the crazy of life and we don’t think too much on it, until something big happens forcing us to have to think about it again.

Today, I’m turning over a new leaf….   I want to remember the little things when they happen and then post them here.  Hope you enjoy reading them, and I’d love to hear about your little things too.

Yesterday, D invited me to come out after work to see him.  Yay!  Little thing.   When I got to the little pizza shop that I picked to meet, he had gotten stuck at the car dealers 2 blocks away because they gave him such a great offer on a trade in, he couldn’t pass it up.  He asked me to be patient (which is not my virtue).   I got something to eat and settled in to read my textbook.  (Another chapter done) Yay!

So while we thought only a half hour delay, turned into 2 hours.  I stayed patient. Yay! (an accomplishment). He would text me and apologize and explain what was going on .  Then he swung by in the new car to pick me up as he had to go sign some paperwork at another office.  He was happy and less stressed.  That made me happy.   When we got there, the sales rep said “Oh this must be your wife”  before I could answer, D said, “not my wife, but she is my girlfriend.”   Little thing that felt so wonderful. (happy dance)   We drove back to my car and sat there.  D played with all the buttons in his new car and was silly.  Like a kid with a new toy.  It was awesome to see him like that.  It was fun to see my Dominant in such a lighthearted manner.  It was also fun to tease him about it.  Little thing.

So while I didn’t get the evening I thought I would, I had such a wonderful time last night.  Seeing D be silly and being able to be quietly supportive at his side, was one of those little things that shouldn’t be taken for granted or forgotten about in the crazy of our lives.

Thank you Sir.