Do you have those times when you seem to lose your mind and you can’t find it?
The past few weeks have been like this for me. Now I know that I have a lot going on in my life… work being very busy right now, going back to school, teaching, being a mom to teenagers and a wonderful relationship with D. Not to mention complicated past relationships. So yes there are valid reasons for my declining mental capacity.
What bothers me most is that I have failed to obey a routine rule, not once, not twice…. multiple times…. all because I honestly forgot.
A few weeks ago, D gave me a “fun” task to do while enjoying an evening of watching television. But because I multi-tasking, I forgot to insert the toy. Completely forgot. Later when he asked, I was shocked that I had forgotten something so fun…. Needless to say I was punished and I served my punishment well. It fit the “fail” because it was something I had to do over a few days and it required me to be in the moment and remember. I was very good and did.
However, in the process I forgot to send my daily two pics to him. One is of me smiling and the other is my choice. He gave me a reprieve as we were both quite busy and he knew I was focused on the punishment. I still was upset by forgetting something else while being punished for forgetting a task. He was much more understanding than I was.
And here I am forgetting once again. I forgot to get gas yesterday, so I was on fumes this morning, I forgot to buy more oatmeal for breakfast at work and I forgot to send both pics yesterday. And now I’m supposed to remember to remind him this weekend that I’m due a punishment for forgetting. I’m seriously doubting my memory abilities right now.
Thanks for reading my rant.